So. It’s been a while… again. I have been reading and writing. Just not writing about reading and writing. Mainly because I haven’t had anything very interesting to say. I don’t blog just for the sake of blogging. I prefer to have an idea, an opinion or a happening I want to share.
Oh yes, I’ve been a busy girl. Haven’t we all. It’s been about family and that’s very satisfying. But I don’t feel I need to air my family good times online. Those are personal times and I love them. And I am very cautious about what I actually send out into the great big permanent world of the internet.
What I have been doing is reading a lot of other people’s blogs on writing and spending time with local writers doing ‘stuff’. I’m trying to improve my writing to a point where I believe I can let it out into the world and be proud of it. Yes, I’ve been fortunate to have several stories published. But today I would probably write them more tightly were I to do them again.
I’ve also been working on a novel since NaNoWriMo last November. I’m working on the final chapters and it’s getting hard to wrap it all up. I’ve been to courses including Ian McHugh’s ‘Polishing Your Turd’. And that is actually what’s next for me. Taking my creation and whipping it into shape. A bit of a daunting prospect. I’ve read that some writers actually enjoy that bit most… just not me. As Ian said, I will have to ‘put on the overalls’ and begin the hard work.
Oh, I’ve equivocated. The old ‘I don’t need to write, I’ve proved myself in other ways’ thoughts, or ‘I’m retired, I don’t need to push myself,’ or ‘I’ll never be as good as [fill in popular author] so why try.’ But then the mood hits and I have to sit at the computer and create a story; good, bad or indifferent. I’ve been doing that most of my life, if not on computer than in notebooks while sitting waiting for someone or something, at coffee shops, in airport lounges. I realise, looking back, I’ve always written and I feel happy when I do. And therefore I MUST finish this book.
And I have also realised it’s not that I want anyone to say how wonderful it is, or it could be a best seller (a highly unlikely scenario). I want to create something and finish it as best I can. And if others like it, it’s a bonus. And this has been the most important realisation, that I NEED to write, and write for me.
I do have two people to thank for all this ‘realising’. The first is my dear friend M.A. Dunham, Marisol to me. We met at the evening meeting of our local writing group the Eurobodalla Fellowship of Australian Writers (EFAW). We’ve become fast friends and she’s a delightful and very talented writer. She’s been chivvying me and we’ve spent days writing together. And then there is Ian McHugh. Beside being a delightful friend he’s a wonderful teacher. He makes difficult issues like editing your own stuff seem a simple process of knuckling down and going through a process. Of course, that’s what it is, but until he laid it out clearly, I really don’t think I had any idea of how to go about it.
And then there is the crew at CSfG. How can you not be inspired by ‘Writers of the Future’ winners like Ian and Shauna O’Meara, and all the other wonderful published authors that make up the group.
So, to finish where I started. I’ve not been blogging but I’ve been busy with family and writing. And maybe, sometime this year, I will have a novel to put out there. Fingers crossed.